We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

self​-​contained

by lightning in a jar

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price

     

1.
self-doubt 01:15
----------------------------------------------- (jab/jab/roundhouse/uppercut) oh please tell me again what i should have done oh please remind me again of the coward i am a little kid on the bus chokes up as he sits clenching his fists he’s target practice for spit his knuckles white but he refuses to fight ignores advice his father gave him just last night a grown man frozen crippled by nervousness a grown man frozen with his shoes soaked in piss he should have listened fuck inhibition, fate, faith and blame chances won't wait so don't hesitate -----------------------------------------------
2.
----------------------------------------------- another year that passed by too fast another year spent chained to the past just like the last another year where nothing’s changed another year back in the same place ——— didn’t we just “celebrate” the same old bullshit holiday it feels like it was yesterday broken connections deflecting questions forced in conversations avoiding reflection everything is fine i have no one to blame but me myself and i -----------------------------------------------
3.
----------------------------------------------- rhetoric vs. rhetoric vs. rhetoric a conspiracy of tyranny misdirected rhetoric vs. rhetoric vs. rhetoric when the truth can’t be exaggerated it’s irony made to be oh so easy as distractions speak so much louder than words you can’t drown it out swindled by the ever-present illusion of choice a parody of a parody of a parody empty slogans from a market of thieves shitting jargon into the overflowing feed pissing in the trough from which we eat yet here we are on our hands and our knees even though we know it’s deceit -----------------------------------------------
4.
----------------------------------------------- why do i say the things that I do without thinking them through? i'm just a prisoner to the words i choose i'll chew up and spit out all your social cues my foot's in my mouth/i can't get it out why do I even leave my home? i'm constantly reminded why i'm better off alone i'm just a prisoner to the choices i've made being dragged down by all of my mistakes my foot's in my mouth/i can't get it out *& #*@#&$(!@)#*($*#(@)@)@##@&^ -----------------------------------------------
5.
----------------------------------------------- chaos contained in such a small space he’s a starving snake detained in the rat race he plasters a smile on his face you wouldn’t know that he feels so out of place like lightning in a jar break the glass -----------------------------------------------
6.
dead air 01:34
----------------------------------------------- no one listens no one cares i'm screaming into dead air and that's fine -----------------------------------------------
7.
----------------------------------------------- finger pointing slut-shamer narcissistic victim blamer an empty smile: delusion/denial an empty smile: eluding trial toxic misogyny embedded culturally absolving all responsibility it’s a disease of society what a bunch of fucking shit “boys will be boys will be boys” repeat it again and again “boys will be boys will be boys” who will never become men -----------------------------------------------
8.
traces of me 00:42
----------------------------------------------- i long for pain that i can see to hide the crisis underneath fabrications of the mind manifesting all the time i grind my teeth i pick my scabs i pull my hair and scratch my head what’s that red spot on my face? i know it wasn’t there before a nail, a hair, a dead skin trace ouch! another bloodstain on the couch -----------------------------------------------
9.
----------------------------------------------- i’m not one to wear my pet peeves on my sleeve but when i hear that word i just wanna turn around and leave i know there’s more to your vocabulary there’s gotta be more to your vocabulary why don’t you use it? i know you’re better than this i can’t make you give a fuck but i’m not asking for much "it’s just one word" -----------------------------------------------
10.
the clog 01:23
----------------------------------------------- all backed up what you gonna do? person next to you is staring back at you can't move forward/can't move back red lights flash and red lights laugh HA you're trapped no applause for this monologue another lost cause caught in the clog feels like i've been here before stuck within these locked doors it feels like i’ve been here before i can't take it anymore -----------------------------------------------
11.
----------------------------------------------- smile wide/no need to hide what we present on the outside maintain the pose just to survive just play along and hope to get it right at times i talk too much and should just shut up at times i don’t say enough talk too much or don’t say enough self-preservation in conversation a series of phrases in constant rotation how are you? "i'm doing fine" i know you don't wanna listen to me whine incessant prattle just to fill a void i hate the sound of my own voice less is more/more or less i sit and stew in silence i think too much -----------------------------------------------
12.
----------------------------------------------- i wanna go back we only knew one skateboard trick we built shelter from branches and sticks we took thousands of basketball shots but mostly missed we were the kids up on notch we didn’t seek answers/we found salamanders under rocks “on the street” we were never alone roller-blading down our own “devil’s backbone” recording prank calls from louie’s house phone smashing glass on an empty lot ‘til the neighbor yelled out the window “i’m calling the cops!” then one day we went out to play we didn’t realize it would be the last time we see each other from time to time -----------------------------------------------

credits

released February 2, 2019

-----------------------------------------------
Paul Alan- Vocals, Bass, Guitar
Kevin Carafa- Drums, Mixing, Mastering
-----------------------------------------------
Wade Culleny- Tracking and Programming (December 2017 through March 2018), Lead Guitar on "Foot in Mouth"
-----------------------------------------------
Produced by Wade, Kevin & Paul.
-----------------------------------------------
Guest Vocals- Nicole Spangenburg, Patrick Flynn, Mike Scarpa, Louie Duva
Gang Vocals- Wade Culleny, Kevin Carafa, Jared Beers.
-----------------------------------------------
Dave Spangenburg- Cover Photo
Yaz Lane- Logo
Josh Jurk- Logo Color
Rob Baranoff- Text Banner
-----------------------------------------------

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

lightning in a jar Hardyston Township, New Jersey

contact / help

Contact lightning in a jar

Streaming and
Download help

Report this album or account

If you like lightning in a jar, you may also like: