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self-doubt
01:15
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(jab/jab/roundhouse/uppercut)
oh please tell me again what i should have done
oh please remind me again of the coward i am
a little kid on the bus chokes up
as he sits clenching his fists
he’s target practice for spit
his knuckles white but he refuses to fight
ignores advice his father gave him just last night
a grown man frozen
crippled by nervousness
a grown man frozen
with his shoes soaked in piss
he should have listened
fuck inhibition, fate, faith and blame
chances won't wait so don't hesitate
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another year that passed by too fast
another year spent chained to the past just like the last
another year where nothing’s changed
another year back in the same place
———
didn’t we just “celebrate”
the same old bullshit holiday
it feels like it was yesterday
broken connections
deflecting questions
forced in conversations
avoiding reflection
everything is fine
i have no one to blame but me myself and i
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thieves' market
01:14
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rhetoric vs. rhetoric vs. rhetoric
a conspiracy of tyranny
misdirected
rhetoric vs. rhetoric vs. rhetoric
when the truth can’t be exaggerated
it’s irony made to be oh so easy
as distractions speak so much louder than words
you can’t drown it out
swindled by the ever-present illusion of choice
a parody of a parody of a parody
empty slogans from a market of thieves
shitting jargon into the overflowing feed
pissing in the trough from which we eat
yet here we are on our hands and our knees
even though we know it’s deceit
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foot in mouth
00:51
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why do i say the things that I do without thinking them through?
i'm just a prisoner to the words i choose
i'll chew up and spit out all your social cues
my foot's in my mouth/i can't get it out
why do I even leave my home?
i'm constantly reminded why i'm better off alone
i'm just a prisoner to the choices i've made
being dragged down by all of my mistakes
my foot's in my mouth/i can't get it out
*& #*@#&$(!@)#*($*#(@)@)@##@&^
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5. |
theme from...
01:07
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chaos contained in such a small space
he’s a starving snake detained in the rat race
he plasters a smile on his face
you wouldn’t know that he feels so out of place
like lightning in a jar
break the glass
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6. |
dead air
01:34
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no one listens
no one cares
i'm screaming into dead air
and that's fine
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"boys will be boys"
01:31
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finger pointing slut-shamer
narcissistic victim blamer
an empty smile: delusion/denial
an empty smile: eluding trial
toxic misogyny embedded culturally
absolving all responsibility
it’s a disease of society
what a bunch of fucking shit
“boys will be boys will be boys”
repeat it again and again
“boys will be boys will be boys”
who will never become men
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traces of me
00:42
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i long for pain that i can see
to hide the crisis underneath
fabrications of the mind
manifesting all the time
i grind my teeth
i pick my scabs
i pull my hair and scratch my head
what’s that red spot on my face?
i know it wasn’t there before
a nail, a hair, a dead skin trace
ouch! another bloodstain on the couch
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just one word
01:16
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i’m not one to wear my pet peeves on my sleeve
but when i hear that word i just
wanna turn around and leave
i know there’s more to your vocabulary
there’s gotta be more to your vocabulary
why don’t you use it?
i know you’re better than this
i can’t make you give a fuck
but i’m not asking for much
"it’s just one word"
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the clog
01:23
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all backed up what you gonna do?
person next to you is staring back at
you
can't move forward/can't move back
red lights flash and red lights laugh HA
you're trapped
no applause for this monologue
another lost cause caught in the clog
feels like i've been here before
stuck within these locked doors
it feels like i’ve been here before
i can't take it anymore
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balancing act
01:31
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smile wide/no need to hide
what we present on the outside
maintain the pose just to survive
just play along and hope to get it right
at times i talk too much and should just shut up
at times i don’t say enough
talk too much or don’t say enough
self-preservation
in conversation
a series of phrases in constant rotation
how are you?
"i'm doing fine"
i know you don't wanna listen to me whine
incessant prattle just to fill a void
i hate the sound of my own voice
less is more/more or less
i sit and stew in silence
i think too much
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kids on notch
02:24
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i wanna go back
we only knew one skateboard trick
we built shelter from branches and sticks
we took thousands of basketball shots but mostly missed
we were the kids up on notch
we didn’t seek answers/we found salamanders under rocks
“on the street” we were never alone
roller-blading down our own “devil’s backbone”
recording prank calls from louie’s house phone
smashing glass on an empty lot
‘til the neighbor yelled out the window “i’m calling the cops!”
then one day we went out to play
we didn’t realize it would be the last time
we see each other from time to time
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